Saying 'goodbye' until we see each other again...

Today we said goodbye to our three little babies who are in Heaven now. Well we had already said goodbye before, as we had to let each one go at its set time. But this time was a special moment we set aside, to make it a more 'formal' goodbye and to have something to look back on and remember dearly, without our memory being attached to the circumstance where we were confronted with the harsh news and our utter shock.

We planted a tree. It is a very special tree as it is one of the first trees to bloom in spring around here. We chose this tree because it blooms closest to what should have been the birthday of our little angels: the 22nd of February. And the blossoms are to be white with a tender note of pink. The tree itself has dark reddish leaves in the summer, and is simply gorgeous! To put it into less words: we planted a prunus cerasifera (cherry plum)!

We formed three little hearts with white stones which we put at the bottom of the tree, three white roses and three little candles. Then we sat down next to it, read Scripture and poems and prayed together. It was a moment we'll definately always remember. Even though it was very sad, there was something hopeful and peaceful about it all. We are soooo thankful to Jesus how we feel carried through and held in it all.

This is what I call God's miracles. I don't need to see people raised from the dead or for God to jumble up the laws He has set in physics (even though He definately is able to do that any time if He wishes too!). For me it is enough to feel His tender arm holding me right there in the storm and be at peace when I feel like my world is falling apart. When I see Him mending broken marriages, when a father calls his child after 14 years of silence, when there is reconciliation between two people who hurt each other deeply and they are able to forgive each other - wow these are miracles I am so thankful to witness and which make me stand in awe before this loving God I can call my friend! I mean the maker of the universe longs to have fellowship with ME? How amazing is that?!!!

A very grateful,
Birgit